I don’t know if I can…
I’ve been planning for my service dog for the past 6 months and now I’m panicking.
Can I do this? Is this the right choice? Am I being selfish? Will Avery be okay? Do I have what it takes? Am I worthy? Will this be a crutch? Will it be worth it? Can I do this?
These questions…constantly swirling in my mind.
This dog could either be a beautiful thing or a horrible mistake. Or is there grey area?
Could it be hard but also worth it? Can I make mistakes but not fail? Will Avery be jealous but still be okay?
Am I doing the right thing? Will I ever know? Is this one of those moments where you say you only live once and take the plunge?
Or do you back out knowing logistically it’s a huge commitment?
How do I know which is the right choice?
Am I a bad person for doing this? And am I also a bad person if I back out of doing this?
Are all of these questions my wise mind or are they coming from my insecurities and fear?
The exhaustion, it’s real, it’s here…
I just want the questions, the doubts, the fears to go away…The anticipation is killing me.
A part of me wants to back out and waste away…ohh the anorexia is so appealing right now. She is calling my name and it sounds so sweet.
Can I do this? Should I do this?
Am I changing my life for the better or am I turning down a path of no return?